I thought it was different, everything lined up with your will. Things fell into place so neatly, like an old dusty forgotten puzzle.
Why? Maybe You will reveal the answers, but until then, I sit here holding on to the pieces.
In my chest is a void, that I know can only be filled by your love, the only perfect love that there is. You won’t ever leave me, forsake me, or hurt me.
I ache for you Lord.
A chasm deep within me hurts and longs to be filled by your presence.
A confusion sets in, thoughts smatter my mind’s eye like rain on a windshield, obscuring the view of the cars whizzing by.
I can barely see the lights through the storm.
They hit the periphery of my vision and then depart, leaving me wanting more.
Selah.
The lights of oncoming traffic come at me, horns blaring, I am panicked for a moment, then I hear you, “Stay in your lane daughter…”
Thoughts in a frenzy, mind spinning, regret welling up.
Tears form from deep within me,“why Lord?”
“I am with you, I will never leave you or forsake you daughter.”
I have been loved, perfectly.
I am loved perfectly, everlastingly, faithfully.
I will always be loved, fervently.
Your love never fades, goes cold or leaves me wanting more.
The longing I feel so weighted in my chest can only be quenched by your presence, your love, your compassion.
Hold me, Lord, rock me, console me.
I want to feel your presence, your love. I long to hear your voice.
Your praise will ever be, will always be, on my lips.
I whisper, “I love you” and a small voice responds, “I love you daughter, and I always will.”
Selah
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